This morning I listened to a message by Steven Furtick about pouring out yourself. Pouring when you don’t feel like when things are not reciprocated, and even when you feel empty. God must have known I was going to need that word this morning because something happened just now that caused me to be upset. It was like I froze, and after the words came out, you could see my smile turn upside down. You saw my expression change and show that I was seriously pissed off. When questioned about that look, I gave a half-serious smile to say I wasn’t pleased with what had just been announced. I had to remember that message this morning because, at that moment, I realized I didn’t want to pour anything else out into that situation. I felt like I had had enough, and was looking forward to being done. My spirit was in a place where I felt a break would have given me just enough to come back and finish.
I guess God had other plans, and I can’t question his authority or decisions. I can surely say that I hate when people feel like they can toss me around at their discretion. I am not pleased, and all of me wants to respond negatively, and my thoughts are not that of Christ. BUT, I digress and will accept the assignment God has for me. I will push through another day. It is also a lesson learned for me because I will never do things this way again. I will not give myself away trying to please others, and all the while, compromise my own peace. Well, I’m enjoying salt and vinegar almonds and ginger ale until it’s time to leave for the day. Most importantly, I will remember that God requires me to keep pouring into others, trusting that HE will refill and bless me no matter what I feel like. Because it’s not about me, it’s about the God in me…BOOM!
Until Next Time,