Where Are The Good People?

I was left today with questions that only God can answer. I’m sure I will never know or understand, but it doesn’t mean we won’t wonder why things happen as they do. Today, my anxiety was triggered, and I began feeling an overwhelming sense of anger, frustration, and just a sick feeling about life and its people. The saying “There’s nothing new under the sun, and what goes around comes back around” is true. It doesn’t make me feel any better, but it is the reality.

I ordered furniture that wasn’t supposed to be delivered until I got back in town. To my surprise, they delivered it today, but to the wrong address. They sent me the picture, and it was clearly not my apartment. It was delivered to a townhouse. I called FedEx to report it, and they put in an emergency tracer report to contact the driver and have my item delivered to my address. I called around to ask if anyone could go and check to see if they saw my package because I was out of town. My sister went to see if they could get it back, but the people took it into their house and wouldn’t answer the door.

I don’t know what made me more upset; they saw my name and address on it and took it as if they paid for it or lacked the integrity to do what was right no matter who did or did not see them. And then to NOT answer the door because I’m sure they figured it was me coming to get it back is even more despicable. God often uses the things I go through to remind me that we are made of flesh and things will go wrong. But I can never allow the things that take place to change who I am. I am also reminded that everyone is not me, so I cannot expect them to do things as I would.

It’s actually a humbling experience. Sometimes I can get caught up in trying to fix things that I forget to go directly to my provider first before going to everyone else. Things will happen to remind you that He should be the first one you call. I stopped to pray; ask forgiveness, and that He give me peace no matter the outcome. I was scrolling through IG and heard this woman singing “Such An Awesome God by Maverick City.” I encourage you to go listen when you get the chance. She had just been in a bad accident on her way to church, and her lungs were bruised along with other things. But her voice sang out like an angel. She was walking around her kitchen/dining room, worshipping and singing that song. Tears began to fall from my eyes, and I began to duet the song with her. I went into a phase of praise and worship that I hadn’t been in for a long while. I was able to release that anxiety, anger, and frustration. Just knowing that I serve an awesome God…so mighty, so selfless, so generous, so faithful.

I shared this with you because there may be someone out there feeling the anxiety building about something in their lives they have no control over. Anxiety comes from not living in THAT moment. Not releasing and going through whatever you’re feeling in that moment. Stop, breathe, lift your hands, and begin to worship God however you know how. Let it all go. Cry, scream, holler, pray, praise…whatever it takes to allow yourself to feel that anxiety away. You don’t have to stay in that feeling because if you don’t let it go, you will carry it with you. Imagine being able to let go of stress, but fighting against it and then becoming sick with worry over it, literally. It’s making us sick. I had to hear it put that way for me to understand so I’m sharing it with you. I pray that God’s love will overwhelm you to the point that you just let go and let Him handle it. May this message reach whomever it was meant to reach. I will be praying for you, whoever you are. Be blessed.

Until Next Time,

ShesThatRN