Hey hey hey everybody. We are in the season of the most celebrated holidays and for some it is amazing and for others, it’s a struggle. How many of you/me have checked on your loved ones, family, friends who are the strongest and most resilient all the time? I’ll be the first to admit that I am “that person” the strong, resilient person there for everyone else. However, I’ll share a secret with you, I am also that person who suffers depression at times especially special holidays when you think of the ones that have passed or people, places or things you may have a loss in other ways. Yesterday was Thanksgiving and of course there were so many reasons to be thankful for but still, I felt sorrow over losing my mom and nephew and holidays can be quite difficult. Well, today is my birthday and I didn’t feel like doing anything so I slept my day away. My day consisted of eating, showering, lying in bed with my computer playing anything I wanted to watch on HULU and sleeping. I’ve been saying I’m going to get up and do this and that but the truth is I didn’t feel like celebrating me. Oh no, no need to feel sorry for me because I don’t, I know when I go through things or am feeling certain kinds of ways I shut down. Is it healthy? no, but it’s what I do BUT, I just decided to get up and write about it, share it, and hopefully, inspire others to sit in it if you must, but get up, wash your face, brush your teeth and do something productive. For me, writing equals productivity and I love to do it. It comes easy for me but I don’t always want to do it. So, I am thankful that even though I lost two very special people, I have very special memories of them. I was able to cry tears of sorrow as well as joy when I thought of the moments we shared and just how much they really enriched my life. I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and if for some reason you didn’t, or you too are feeling somewhat depressed, I pray that you will find that one happy moment to remember and allow that to soothe your soul and make you smile. Don’t forget, get up and get back to things once you’ve taken that time you needed to just sit and be.
Until next time,
ShesThatRNspiration wishes peace, love, and joy!
ShesThatRNspiration 
You had mentioned how you felt hopeless, helpless and only wanted to get out of bed for ‘the necessities.’ That’s okay and probably the way your body ‘handles’ this massive thing, that all consuming depression/sadness. A friend (now a very successful psychotherapist, told me, “those days need a statute of limitation?” Yes, sit on your pity pot for a few days if you need it. Sit on your pity pocked, YOU’LL BE GLAD YOU DID!
But, say to yourself, “It’s okay if I’m here for a few days, but I need to get off” and then honor yourself, indulge yourself for a few days and then get off. Your body and your mind will realize that YOU’RE STILL THE BOSS!
Annie-lupus guru
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Hey Annie, thank you. I’ve been through therapy many times and you’re psychotherapist is absolutely right. You do what you have to and then you get up to fight another day.
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I have MANY therapist friends that I’ve learned the lingo and learned that it WORKS! I also learned from hospice therapists, so I am equipped with the therapy basics or diffuse the situation so that it is manageable until the the social worker arrives..
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