What if God needed me to be the vessel, I could not see myself being with the natural eye? What if my feelings of hopelessness weren’t meant for me to feel defeated but to be enlightened? I often question God as to my purpose and always welcome Him to use me as a vessel. But, what if being a vessel meant I had to go without. Or lose something or someone that means so much to me? What if, as if He really needs me for anything, but instead He chose me for such a time as this? How do I answer that calling and submitting to the Father’s will willingly as He submitted Himself to His Father’s will WILLINGLY? All the ugly things that are taking place are not for naught. Am I angry, yes, am I tired, yes; am I fed up, yes but I also genuinely believe that even the worse possible things happen because God allowed it to be. Now, I’m not saying that I understand it because I don’t and may never get it. But is His ways my ways and His thoughts my thoughts? They are not! So, when it gets too hard, and I don’t see the light, I have to trust Him. Sometimes I feel like God has forgotten all about me and us.
Today I thought to myself, God, I know you’ve gone through and felt every pain we feel, but since you paid the price, why must we continue paying the price for other people’s evil and hate? I declare unto you I don’t have the answers, but I am standing on the Word of God. That’s it, and that’s all. What I will leave you with this evening is one of my mother’s favorite scriptures. She would have us print it out and hang it above our children’s cribs when they were babies. She would remind us to read it and carry it in our hearts as a reminder that God will not leave us, and He will protect us. So, I share it with you to hide in your heart, and may it bring you much peace is such times of uncertainty and despair.
Psalm 97:7-16 New King James Version (NKJV)
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
And ten thousand at your right hand;
But it shall not come near you.
8 Only with your eyes shall you look,
And see the reward of the wicked.
9 Because you have made the Lord, who is my refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
10 No evil shall befall you,
Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
11 For He shall give His angels charge over you,
To keep you in all your ways.
12 In their hands they shall [a]bear you up,
Lest you [b]dash your foot against a stone.
13 You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.
14 “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
I will [c]set him on high, because he has known My name.
15 He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With [d]long life I will satisfy him,
And show him My salvation.”
Until Next Time,
Rest In Heaven Ma,