I have been feeling, or my body has been trying to tell me something. I recently talked with God about what He was trying to teach or tell me. I’ve been noticing or paying attention to my body lately. When it’s time to go to work, I literally begin to feel sick and my body starts feeling like it’s falling apart. Y’all I mean I have unexplained physical symptoms. Things like increased back pain, headaches, joint pain, flu-like symptoms, it’s really bad. Mind you I’ve been experiencing this for a while, but just started to pay attention to when it happens. While on the way to work, I told my dad I needed him to pray for me. I shared what had been happening and that I just didn’t want to do nursing anymore because it doesn’t feel the same to me and I have become burnt out. He asked if I wanted to do something else in nursing like palliative care. I said, not really Daddy. I just feel like I can use my passion in another way that doesn’t require me to operate in a clinical setting. I’m just not feeling it anymore.
The last two or three times, I asked God to reveal what He was trying to tell me or show me the lesson so I could pass the test and not continue repeating it. I asked God even though you said nursing was my ministry, did you mean I had to stay in it this way? Then I asked him to give me the heart to receive whatever He wanted me to hear the way He intended it. So, what is it I’ve been hearing from God? That it’s time to move on. You’re so uncomfortable now because you’ve allowed yourself to become comfortable with complacency. And when you asked for the businesses, I gave them to you, but you continue to trust a job and paycheck instead of me. Okay, God, I hear you, but what if I fail, what if my dreams are too big, what if I get out there and it doesn’t work out? Then what?
Then you still failed to trust me. Where is your faith? Did I not say in Matthew 6:26 “Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” I reluctantly agree and ask for forgiveness. Then he reminds me that I am constantly seeking the approval of “man” and putting their approval above His. Again, I am sorry God. I heard him tell me if I had destined for you to fail, you would fail no matter what. Instead, I told you in Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” *Sigh* You’re right God. Now what?
Now, I work part-time as a clinical nurse and full-time as a business owner. I asked and He answered. Now it’s up to me to listen to God and work the plan. Many things can alter how we think and what we do, however, we have to stay focused and not allow ourselves to become distracted. All the millionaires I’ve studied have one major thing in common. That is, they have routines to their day and I don’t. I just get up and wing it. I can say I’m going into the office, but sleep in late, do not have balanced meals, and have no time set aside for me and God. Each person has to identify their own distractions and deal with them. I encourage you to ask, listen, and then act upon what you hear. This week I’m challenging myself to create a morning routine for EVERYDAY. I say that with all caps because I work nights and I’m easily swayed to excuse myself when I’m tired. That’s an excuse and I’m gearing myself up not to make any.
I have a lot planned for myself starting at the beginning of June. I would love it if you would share some things you are now or have been contemplating on modifying. And if you have a morning routine, please share it. If you’re going to create one like me, please share that too. I read all my comments and respond. Let’s make June’s challenge to create a routine and stick with it. I’ll see you guys in the comments. Have a blessed week.
Until Next Time,
ShesThatRNspiration 