I’m Actually Learning to Love It!

As a nurse, you know there are days I ask God if nursing is what I’m really supposed to be doing. And each time he shows me the answer. I get my “yes,” as well as my “why.” See, it’s not about me, and usually, when I question Him, it’s because of emotions. Someone hurt my feelings or got under my skin. Needless to say, I am fulfilling my purpose. I have other areas where I can use my voice and my gift of healing.

Lately, I’ve been trying to figure things out about Sharon. Where do I want to go and what else do I want to do. I have a podcast, and I share my feelings, experiences, skills, and expertise with the world, just like I do with my blog. I’ve had the pleasure of interviewing 3 amazing women in different areas of work and various levels of expertise. I hope you take the time to check out the upcoming podcast. In doing so, I realized that as much as I fear to talk to people, I enjoy engaging with others and finding out what they think about and feel about things. I love digging deeper into subject matters that no one really wants to go into or is afraid of. Exploring areas that aren’t easy to navigate is therapeutic in some ways. Exchanging ideas and thoughts help to get other points of view and different perspectives.

I sometimes feel like I have so much going on, but really not enough. So, I keep plugging away at it and working on getting it right. What right is I’m not sure I know or if it actually exists. I’ve come to realize that I won’t please everybody, some things will make people happy, and some piss them off. I may gain and lose people along the way, but as long as I stay true to myself, maintain integrity in what I’m doing, and stand in my truth, I’ll be alright. See, it’s okay to not have it all together, it’s okay to fall sometimes, it’s okay to be my “big ole baby” self, and it’s okay just being me. No one else can be who God created me to be, and I love who I am today, all the things I went through yesterday, and all the beautiful things to come.

So be you, and hopefully, that’s not a mean, self-serving, hateful individual. But if it is, be that and let the world see it because it’s you. We spend so much time hiding and being what and who we think people want us to be, and we live with facades. But I challenge you to be you, whoever that is. Good, bad, or indifferent. I can respect you for who you are, even if I don’t like it. It’s the cunning, sneaky ones that act kind in front of you but hate you and plot on you behind your back. That’s what and who I DON’T like!!!!

Until Next Time,

ShesThatRN